Wow! I totally forgot about this blog! I almost deleted it, but then I read it and figured hey, why not continue on?
I did fairly well in my first year of law school. But then the second year...I don't know. I just completely and totally stopped caring. I went to class and took my finals and everything...but then I decided to quit school. After 3 semesters and waayyyy too much debt. I thought it would be a hard decision and something I'd be really upset/distraught over. But instead it brought me nothing but relief! I feel so much less stress and burden just even thinking about it! So after studying like hell for the LSAT, agonizing over whether to go to law school or not, and after 3 semesters...I was just so DONE! I just officially withdrew about 2 weeks ago and I still get so happy just thinking about it. Best decision evah!
Since both of my jobs were through school, that sucks and no more. So I'm pretty much just an unemployed bum not working or going to school for the time being.
And I am LOVING it!
I have enough money saved up for my February bills, and my tax refund should cover my March bills, but after that I'm pretty screwed. So by April 1 I HAVE to have a job.
Weirdly enough, I've also decided to go to community college for a little while. LOL. I have a Bachelor's and a year and a half in law school behind me...but now I'm going to a CC. Mainly because I want to defer my student loans as long as possible, and because I want financial aid money since I still have over a year left on my Pell Grant. I'm going to get either an Associate's degree or a Certificate in Alcohol & Drug Counseling...I actually haven't decided yet which one! I'm already enrolled though, and will be starting classes at the end of February. I only have class on Mondays and Fridays, so I'm hoping to get a decent job for the other days. I also am going to continue with my foster parent trainings and certification. While I have always wanted to be a FP and am not doing it for the money, it certainly won't hurt. My goal is to make enough on my own to pay for at least the bare minimum in my expenses, so I'm not depending on that money, ever. But then I can at least use it for extra expenses like extracurriculars and fun places for the kids, and things like that.
So let's see where I am with my goals...
I just moved to my OWN house in December, and that has helped me a TON! Not only am I loving it, but I clean all the time, am super organized, and have done great with budgeting! So yay, go me! LOL.
I'm doing okay with the kids, too. Mornings are going MUCH MUCH MUCH better for us lately! Bedtime is still my living hell. Mainly because my daughter is in elementary school and gets super tired and has to get to bed early. If she's not in her bed by 7:30, it's meltdown time. Sometimes she even needs to be in bed by 7. But then my son's daycare is still having him nap for 203 hours (UGGGHHHHHHH!!!!) and he is often up until midnight. That drives me up the damn wall, that's for sure. I feel like I'm getting a lot more patient with them. I've read so many parenting books lately. I am really trying my hardest. They're good kids. But KIDS. I need to be reminded of that sometimes.
On my weight loss goal...blah, I suck. I did this really extreme diet for a week at New Year's and I lost 14 pounds in 5 days. It was pretty awesome, and I keep wanting to start it again. But then I get so damn hungry! Lol. Definitely something I need to get control of.
My love life...oh man. I could write a freaking book with all that's happened in this area in the past few months. Man, it's been a bit tumultuous. To say the least. I have learned a lot. About myself, love, life...truly everything. It's definitely helped a lot with my prior confidence/self-esteem goal, though. Lol.
I honestly DO feel like a real grown up now. Which is nuts, because when I look back at this blog from almost a year ago, I remember writing this and I remember how I felt powerless in so many ways and almost like a kid/teenager. So much has changed since then. I think it's a combination of moving into my new house, meeting tons of new people, and crazy love life drama. And quitting law school was oddly empowering.
So going forward, I am going to try to remember to post here more! I think it will help to keep me accountable. My goals going forward are:
--Get a J-O-B! Priority Number One!
--Get better with budgeting and know exactly how much $$ I need
--Save money
--Eat healthier, get the kids to eat healthier, and lose weight
--Be more patient with the kids, and be a better mom overall
--Be more social, especially with other parents
--Not mess things up with my current boyfriend. It's going pretty damn awesome, but I have a habit of screwing things up over nothing, and it's only been a few weeks.
